The house hunt has begun. I went out with my real estate agent yesterday to look at houses for the first time... It was a mess! Okay, so I lied.... it was just me that was a mess. I don't know how many of you know this about me, but I worry. A LOT. All the time. We actually went and looked at one house that would have been amazing for us, except for the fact that we would never be able to open any of our windows, or go in our backyard, and we would have to run from the house to the car with our noses plugged because there is a dairy right next to the housing tract. Sorry Amy, but I just don't think I will we will be neighbors... Did I mention though that this house would be perfect? A cute little one story, 3 bed, 2 bath, nice open floor plan, perfect price, and my agent has an in with the selling agent, so we were almost guaranteed that house if we put an offer in. Oh, and it had brand new paint and brand new carpet... But I'm not willing to settle. I just can't deal with the smell from the dairy. I left that house with my stomach in knots.
"What if I don't find anything I like as much?" "What if nothing else comes along?" "What if that was the house for me and I just passed it up because of a bunch of stupid cows?" (what are they doing there anyway? Geez.) What if, what if, what if. I have another one for you: What if I could just CHILL OUT???? I'm sure Nick would appreciate it if I could, I just don't know how! This is something I've wanted for so long and my living situation is SO AWFUL (can you believe we have been living in that teeny, tiny, itty, bitty, small, little room for THREE YEARS now?) that I just feel so anxious to move on and have our own place. A home.
My mom told me to relax and my agent said that I need to have fun. And I know I do. I also need to find a home. Soon. My breakdowns are happening more and more frequently. Sometimes I think about having my own space and I start crying and can't stop. I would really appreciate all of the prayers, and thoughts, and good vibes that you could send my way. I know I'll get through this. Neal A. Maxwell said "Faith in the Lord includes faith in His timing." I have to trust that as long as I keep searching, and praying, and looking, and touring, and praying, and searching, and praying some more, the Lord will lead me to the right home at the right time.
3 comments:
You prayed for me- you better believe I will be praying for you:-) (thanks for the text!)
I agree with you for not settling- you have waited too long to be unhappy with your choice!
Patience my dear! It will happen for you. My Dad is the best there is and he will take care of you. And you know he who else will? HE will too!
I love you! And miss you! I will be thinking about you and praying for you.
I want to share with you something I have learned in my own life recently and maybe my insight will help you too.Faith and fear cannot co-exist. You either have the faith and allow Heavenly Father to steer your course or you live in fear and side with Satan {and lets be honest who even cares about that what's his no face} HUGS
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